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I am the queen of bad decisions
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
So here's a fucking poem I just wrote.

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I'm just waiting for the walls of my insides to come clean

Because right now it's all a mess

All these thoughts, balled up inside me, weighing me down

It's harder to say I don't when I do

Than to say I do when I don't

Partners in crime, but there's no enjoyment in the actual crime

I want to reach inside and pull out your thoughts

Spread them wide open, read between the lines

Testing, testing, I'm just suggesting

I can't tell if this was a good thing

Self-medicate, chase the demons away

They know how to swim and I'd rather drown

I'm not twenty-one, it's time to have some fun

Oh wait, I fucking am, when's the fun coming?

I'm stuck, self-torturing, my meds are failing me

The waves of loneliness bashing against my defenses

People are not real, there's just me and my thoughts

Lyrics and music the glue keeping it all together

Don't try to fix me, there's fuck-all to save

Standing on the edge of my life

And something's about to come crashing down.


All Time Kittens
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
Title: All Time Kittens
Fandom: All Time Low
Pairing: Gen, but there's Rian/Cassadee if you squint.
Rating: Look guys I wrote an all-ages appropriate thing in between the gay porn!
Notes: They're kittens. If you're not into band members being adorable balls of fluffiness, this is the wrong fic.
Summary: All Time Low are kittens. That's basically it.

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A Single Night Without a Ghost in the Wall
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
Title: A Single Night Witout a Ghost in the Wall
Pairing: Kellin Quinn/Vic Fuentes
Fandom: Sleeping With Sirens/Pierce the Veil
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Infidelity
Summary: Vic and Kellin getting it on in a broom closet on the set of King for a Day.

A/N: So I may have a crush on Vic Fuentes. Sue me. Anyway, I already have this huge universe in my head in which Kellin and Vic get together and live kinkily ever after, but I'm still working everything out (and I may have lost the Jack/Alex/Vic/Kellin foursome I was working on before, sob) so here's something from the beginning of the Big Story in my head.
I don't own these guys, btw, or the song. Or the video. Or anything, really, besides a kinky mind and a disturbing imagination. (The things I want to do to Vic, omfg, it's scaring me a little. But did anyone see in A Love Like War how fucking adorable Vic is when his face is all scrunched up?)

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Back on the poetry-horse!
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
I wrote some poetry again and in preparation for the Creative Writing Poetry Performance Night (man, that name is way too long xD ) I thought I'd post it up here so I would have one place where I could find the poems.
There's three right now, might be more coming later. Idk yet. I'm trying a new style again, and I've been trying to not write the poetry as soon as two lines come to my head, but waiting until the rest gets filled in naturally. I think I've been writing better poems.
Anyway!

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So a friend of mine dared me to write straight porn...
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
So I did.
This isn't any fandom, although I might rewrite it later with names. I like the way it turned out, but I found it's really hard for me to write heterosexual porn/kink - mostly because all my characters are either men or I can't find the right 'ship, and I tend to make the female character a self-insert.
Anyway, I wrote it anyway, so here it is.

Title: Yeah. Uh. I forgot I wanted a title. So. Let's go with "I Write Sins Not Tragedies".
Pairing: Heterosexual, no names.
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Straight-up kink. Not even sex, just kinky shit.
Notes: D/s, whipping, funishment, tickling, paddling, kissing.

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Dipping my toes into P!atD fandom, woohoo!
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
So I decided to somewhat move to Panic! at the Disco fandom, because things are kind of better there. I like the overall quality of fic much more. However, Alex won't leave me alone, so I wrote an Alex/Spencer story. Because why the fuck not.
This is kind of taking place in a bigger universe in my head where Alex, Jack, Spencer and Brendon have kinky foursomes, but I'm still working on that bigger story so I might post it up later. All you really need to know for this is that after they had their first playdate, everyone agreed that they're pretty much cool with anyone playing with anyone else of the four.
I don't really have a title for the story, but whatever.

Title: None. I call it self-indulgence fic :P
Pairing: Alex Gaskarth/Spencer Smith
Fandom: All Time Low and Panic! at the Disco
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Alex is having a hard time, and with Jack out of the question, he turns to Spencer to help him through it.
Notes: Bondage, spanking, BDSM used as a coping mechanism, mentions of self-harm, and agreed upon polyamory.

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Let me tell you about my prompt-addiction.
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
Ever since I found out about comment_fic (community.livejournal.com/comment_fic) I've been addicted to writing prompts. I even started up a story on FF.net (www.fanfiction.net/s/5594322/1/Prompts) where people can prompt me things in the Castle-fandom.
Anyway. So I kind of wanted to have something where all my prompts can be found and here it is. Every (well, save for one or two that I couldn't find anymore) prompt I've written so far on comment_fic.
Last updated: 22/03/10

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Get Down On Your Knees and Tell Me You Love Me
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje

Title: Get Down On Your Knees and Tell Me You Love Me
Fandom: All Time Low RPS
Pairing: Alex/Jack
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jack's messed up and Alex has to punish him for it.
Warnings: Humiliation play, D/s, caning, bondage.
Notes: This is the first time I wrote a scene that was mostly focused on humiliation. Usually, it would be a small part, if I wrote it at all, but I thought the song somewhat asked for a humiliation scene. Feedback's appreciated!
Disclaimer: This is not about the real Alex and Jack (though wouldn't it be fun if they actually did this?) and I certainly do not own them in any way.


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Walk the Tightrope to Hold On to You
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
Finally, an update!
Since my laptop decided internet was optional a couple of days ago, I actually managed to get a story rewritten that was in my drafts folder for ages. It's still Victorious fandom, but you know. It's a threesome, it's somewhat kinky, I'm satisfied :P

Title: Walk the Tightrope to Hold On to You
Fandom: Victorious
Pairing: Beck/Andre/Robbie
Summary: After Beck breaks up with Jade, Andre and Robbie come to take care of him.
Rating: NC-17
Notes: Some bondage and hints of D/s. Title's from Forget About It, by All Time Low.


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167 words
Alex Gaskarth Coffeeshop Soundtrack
raapsteeltje
So for Creative Writing we had to write a poem that could also be performed. Well, something like that xD I mostly wrote a poem filled with references. A list of them is at the bottom for anyone who's interested!


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