I am the queen of bad decisions
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I'm just waiting for the walls of my insides to come clean
Because right now it's all a mess
All these thoughts, balled up inside me, weighing me down
It's harder to say I don't when I do
Than to say I do when I don't
Partners in crime, but there's no enjoyment in the actual crime
I want to reach inside and pull out your thoughts
Spread them wide open, read between the lines
Testing, testing, I'm just suggesting
I can't tell if this was a good thing
Self-medicate, chase the demons away
They know how to swim and I'd rather drown
I'm not twenty-one, it's time to have some fun
Oh wait, I fucking am, when's the fun coming?
I'm stuck, self-torturing, my meds are failing me
The waves of loneliness bashing against my defenses
People are not real, there's just me and my thoughts
Lyrics and music the glue keeping it all together
Don't try to fix me, there's fuck-all to save
Standing on the edge of my life
And something's about to come crashing down.